“ It felt like the spirit was like- ‘You have been trying to do this by yourself for so long, and I’ve been here the whole time, whether or not you choose to utilize it, I’m here the whole time and I’m here now and I’m not going anywhere. We’re gonna get through this together.’ And I needed that so bad because I had no idea how bad it was going to get.” And I needed that so bad because I had no idea how bad it was like about to get.